Right now I have been having discipline problems in comp sci. I can do all the work in class, but I have been having a lot of trouble forcing my self to do the blog posts. I am running out of things to talk about (quite obviously), especially in share posts, which I am about to simply give up on. Except for blog posts, the class is wonderful, the programming for the most part intuitive, and the material well paced and interesting. Writing too little makes me feel like I am cutting corners for easy grades, something I despise, but I do not have enough problems or spurts of genius to justify writing anything more than a two sentence update. I have come to the point where I am at a loss for what or how much to say. If it is acceptable, or even if it isn't, I will just default to incredibly short, mundane posts unless I can find an other solution.
It doesn't just stop there though. Should I fail to do a blog post, or even delay one, suddenly the worrying hound that is my parents jumps on it and all I can think about for the next day is ripping my hair out, thinking of something to squeeze in for a grade. It is not that I am pressed for time; my schedule is quite loose. It is that, once I sit down to write up something, there is nothing at all to write. I may sit down two or threes times over the course of a week, look at the screen for 5 minutes thinking about how I wish I had something to say, and then throw my hands in the air in frustration and do something else. Once I finally stumble upon something to write about, I blast through my posts, nothing flat. I love to write. If, however, the pressure from my parents gets to me first (most likely the case), I throw some dribble on the page and call it a day. I need an out.
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